“Life is all about timing... the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available,
the unattainable... attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It's all about timing.”
☁zena
6th September
CHIJ SECONDARY TOA PAYOH
SECONDARY 3/7 '09
CONCERT BAND; PERCUSSION!♥
allstarz-roks@hotmail.com
GHOST FESTIVAL IS TMR! REMEMBER NOT TO PLAY WITH THEM, IF NOT THEY WILL PLAY WITH YOU! THEY LOVE TO PLAY ANYWAY!
eh, a bit sadistic don't you think. her dp also another one. don't know what's wrong with her! HAHAHA! she's another TALL person luh. make me feel so short. she's tallie and i'm shortie. that's what we call each other. (:
I SCREWED UP GEOG, ENGLISH AND HOME ECONS TEST TODAY! i know i did. i'm dead for it. hahaha. though i DID study. but what's the use when i can't do well. i'll still get it from my mother. oh well.
animation today. had lunch with janet they all in the canteen. went for animation, we only allowed to leave after they approve of our storyboard. was walking to the interchange with janet, qiaojing, jiaying and lao shi. went to EC macs with janet and jiaying. stayed there and did rubbish. janet was being retarded and i was writing this DUMB letter to spongebob. hahaha.
came home. i'm doing lit homework now. i'm DOOMED for ALL the tests! sigh.
i'm too tired now to do anything. was smsing shimin the whole night. hahaha.
BE HAPPY DAPHNE! ILOVEYOU!<3
i managed to memorise at least some things for geog. and now, i'm on home econs. i'm going to die for this 2 subjects i have never passed geog and i suck at home econs theory. there's still english test that mrs jay only told us about today. and it's all at one go if you look at the timetable! geog first 2 periods, test. english next 2 periods, test. recess 1 period, rest. home econs next 3 periods, test. maths 1 period, lessons. animation until 3.30
going with janet after animation. i'm damn tired. but i need to at least read my home econs.
i'm vertically challenged with shimin. she's freaking tall. while i'm so short. i feel like running tmr. but i don't think anyone will run. besides, i need to study.
oh well, mug, mug, mug.
i officially announce that zena's brain dead. thank you.
went for lunch with janet at LJS today after school. we started talking about THINGS. (: hahaha. so yeah, and then we stayed until about 4 and then we went to popular because she needed to get things. i left at 4.15 to go back to school for junior band.
when i went, only kiaying and veronica was there. kiaying left early. leaving veronica and me.
had to sight-read their piece and play in front of the whole band. you can't blame me for not being able to play finish. as in not blame me totally. i needed to sight-read. and so, yeah. brought grace out halfway because she didn't know how to play. when we went back, JUNIOR BAND ENDED! veronica left early. hahaha.
so yeah, i was keeping the things that they knew how to take out but not put back. this time, it was from xinhui to tell me that she wants to see sec3s coming at least one. and also, not only one person stays till junior band finish. last time, it was shimin who told me. now, it's xinhui. oh well.
sorry liana. i think it's my fault. i'm so sorry for not being able to tell them to play well causing all the stress. xinhui, liana and nian ci started singing something or don't know what. hahaha. they are damn funny. was fooling around with christabel. we told liana some jokes that she couldn't stop laughing. it wasn't that funny anyway. i don't know why she laughed so hard. hahaha.
was fooling around. seeing how shimin "plays" with people. she violated nian ci. christabel and i was just standing there. and dawn wanted a camera to take pictures of what they were doing. shimin and xinhui pranked the band. and they started playing.
walked out of school with shimin, christabel and liana. hahaha. came home, fell asleep in the car, ate dinner, bathed. i've got to study for history! DIE! ):
YAY! i'm going for lunch with janet tmr after school. hahaha. we're going to be talking about so many things tmr. hahaha. it's a SECRET.(:
i'll go back for junior band when kiaying or crystal's going to leave. but i'm going to tell shimin something so that she can leave it till the end. so that i can see how they DIE! i feel so sadistic but oh well. they're just getting what they should receive. hahaha.
too bad ashlee. you're going to die if you don't listen. as in what i said in msn. you will die if you don't listen. i'll guarantee that. hahaha.
section competition is coming soon. it's on the 23 August! damn fast. it's going to be here SOON! how how? DIE LUH! hahaha. which means it's going to be SEC ONE RECITAL too! hahaha.
CCA is going to stand-down on 28August. reusme on 11October. and then we'll be preparing for end-year concert. hahaha. oh well. i'm damn tired. hahaha. but my hair is still WET and therefore, i can't go to sleep yet. and i suck at maths this days. i just can't seem to put the formula correctly. i know i suck.
JANET just loves keeping me in suspense. i guess i won't have any sleep tonight from all the thinking. she gave me something to think about. but i think it has nothing to do with my guesses. oh well. i WON'T have a good night sleep tonight i guess. since i'll be thinking of what she's saying. hahaha.
no nice people online to talk to.
daphne's off to mug. shimin went offline about 10 to 15 minutes ago. janet just went offline. ashlee's offline. stelle's offline heather won't really reply. ruhui's offline. yuyun's offline.
oh yes, chill yuyun. i'm not mad anymore. (:
so bored. but i don't feel like sleeping yet. i just slept in the afternoon for a while. hahaha.
janet has speech tmr. good luck to her man. hope she doesn't get a fright. HAHAHA! ♥
BOO! okay. my parents weren't that bad today. i only said those things because i felt... i don't know how to say.
okay. so yeah. did lit homework just now. hahaha. and yeah, i think i want to continue now since jiele told me about what i can write. or maybe in fact, because i asked her. so i can continue!
IF NOT I'LL DIE, MS PUJA'S SCARY. (:
talked to daphne online just now. but only for a while because she needed to do her testimonial thingo. (:
ashlee owes me letter. she said it got confiscated. rah. i'm bored now. okay! continue with lit.
i used to think that i have great parents. but after today, i think they totally aren't that great after all.
i hate it when they keep comparing my results with people who are smart. i hate it when they keep relating whatever they can to my studies. i hate it when they keep saying that i'm not scared for my streaming. i hate it when they keep saying that i don't study and using the computer instead. i hate it when they keep accusing me. i hate it when they scold me without knowing. i hate it when they say i'm useless. i hate it when they say i'll stay in sec2 next year.
they don't know what i'm thinking. they think that whatever they do is the best for me. they don't think about how i feel. i've never felt so miserable before. but ever since SA1, both of them changed.
they think that my sister is good in her studies while i'm just a pile of shit. they think that only my sister is good acadamically while i'm useless. they think that i cant study. they think badly of me. they have never seen me trying. they have never thought about me. all they want is good results. they've never realised the stress and pressure unto me by them. they've never realised about all the things that are happening around me.
i hate it. i hate this kind of life. i hate my life.
i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid.
i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart.
i know i'm stupid. stop rubbing salt into my wound. it's not up to me to make you think that i'm studying. it all depends on how you look at me.
had band in the morning today. was supposed to test the sec1s but they weren't serious, so i gave up. i'll test them on tuesday instead. since the conductor won't be going and it will be sectionals.
break time was broken up. half went at 9.30 and the other half of the section went at 10. if i remember correctly, it's because of the sec1s. seniors to stay and teach them. so they broke us up. shannen, crystal and i went for the 10am one. hahaha.
after that, nicole stayed for main band to watch. she left during our 10 minutes break because it was boring. but after that was quite fun.(:
went for lunch at mac with crystal and yang lin after band. met my mother at NTUC after lunch. went home and fell asleep. i know i was dirty. but it wasn't on purpose.
woke up. studied my lit - flowers for algernon. crystal said don't need to study. she must be crazy. hahaha.
shimin and daphne are not online. i love the both of them. damn funny.
i didn't manage to run today because it started raining. so i'll be running with veronica tmr morning. how nice is she. she'll wait for me to reach before she run. hahaha.
school was okay. science remedial after school. damn slack. we were PLAYING from 245 to 345. teacher came, i fell asleep. because we all thought that it was useless.
only THREE people from 2/8 are in the wednesday class. but only TWO people attended today. the rest were from 2/7.
came back home. i'll be cutting my hair tmr after animation. rah.
melissa will be back tmr too. hahaha. after all that she missed out during lessons.
and today's english test sucked i swear! i didn't manage to finish question 11 and the last question on the vocab. i suck at time management. rah.
im sorry :) sorry for talking back to you; and for saying mean stuff to crystal. i promise that i wont do it again. if i do it again, you can slap me awake. and you can stab me fifty times; and rip my heart out infront of the other percs. i hope you forgive me. i didnt mean to be rude :/ i will listen to you in future, respect you, and love you :D & i dont think you're talking rubbish. so yeah, once again. SORRY. <3
alright. i admit that i was annoyed during junior band. after kiaying, heather and crystal left, leaving me alone. poor crystal. i pity her.
yeah, i was thinking of just leaving the band room halfway during junior band. but oh well, i couldn't leave. because there must be at least ONE senior to be there. damn annoyed. it's not that i want to forget about sec1s. it's just that, i can't stand it. almost all of them think that they don't have to listen to us because we're only 1 year older. almost all of them don't want to listen to what we have to say. almost all of them thought that we were talking rubbish. rah.
okay. enough of that.
during school was okay. everything was okay. after school was okay except... dinner with my family was okay. watching television with my family was okay. now typing this post, am okay. what else?
just a little annoyed because people don't want to answer my question. i'm asking first. can't i? why must i reply first? why can't it be you first?
okay, i'm over-reacting now.
zena's falling sick. i think i'm already sick. had slight fever this 2 days. but apparently, no one knew. and i thought it was okay. i think i'm better now. though may be infected with flu. rah.
HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY! hahaha. i'm taking a long time to type this post. hahaha. damn lazy now.
lessons as usual. band after school. we ended early. all we did was just sight-read some new pieces and did rythmn book. i love the rythmn book. hahaha. damn fun.
walked to the interchange with monica, heather, shannen, crystal and kinny. monica's damn funny. " the more you laugh, the more your organs JIGGLE! " HAHAHA! she's damn funny. can't stand it. hahaha.
dinner without monica at KFC. kinny left earlier. and then we left. went home. i slept for 15 minutes. went to bathe. did some project research which needs to be finished by tmr! yeah. i guess i'm going to sleep SOON! was dying during lessons today.
i guess partly was because i'm sick. boo. being sick sucks.
talkin to ashlee online now. she's weird. i swear. the weirdest. or maybe, one of the weirdest. PE TMR!
the class better run or we'll die. yes i know. i've been lazy this few weeks for slacking during pe. no mood luh. hahaha.
i'm dying. help me. damn tired. there's still JUNIOR BAND tmr! i'll seriously die of EXHAUSTION one day. ONE FINE DAY.
got back 15 minutes ago. went to botanic garden to watch the shell-moe band fiesta. with veronica, felicia, jayni, simone, gary and adam. veronica left halfway. but we managed to get a group picture though.
marris stella high school was there. saw clement. he's in band people. don't think he saw me. (:
okay, went for dinner after that at TANGLIN MALL. at the TASTY FOOD COURT. hahaha.
and the aunty who sold beef noodles was damn bitchy. sorry for being mean. but she was scolding for nothing. can't she just speak properly? oh my goodness. kept on scolding.
walked to the bus stop with felicia, simone and jayni. hahaha. i was damn tired there. couldn't survive. i don't know how the hell i managed to survive now to post this. anyway, yeah, we waited with felicia to wait for her bus first because she was taking 132 back to her house alone. while we were taking 111 to dhoby gauht (sp?) yeah, jayni and simone were singing. i was still falling asleep.
took the mrt back to bishan and my mother fetched me home. here's information for someone; jayni can't survive after 10.
simone, sorry but i've got to say this. you're damn loud i'm serious. no offense. as in, you talk damn loud luh. hahaha. talk softer. you were nice today. (: i'm serious, no offense okay.
so yeah.
now about yesterday.
started with junior band from 8 to 1030. we had games instead of runs. after that, we went off for sectionals. we couldn't stay in the band because they were having band auditions for DSA.
so we moved to the 3rd level. saw kinny's art stuff there. hahaha. damn cool.
started working on the section competition piece while the sec1s were practicing their recital pieces. had section lunch at KFC after that. kiaying, heather, ashlee, rena, monica, shannen. rena, you owe me $1.10. (:
heather and kiaying came over to my house to study. went for the bbq together.
it was farewell party yesterday.
so yeah, reached at about 5.50 saw ashlee and crystal halfway. went to the band room to put our bags. heather was being a fool by posing funnily at the snare. hahaha. fooled around at the fitness corner. i wanted to climb up the wall but i didn't manage to. hahaha. kept laughing! how to climb? hahaha.
heather and crystal manage to go up.
(fast forward. it's getting boring i know.)
they showed us a video of the sec4s and 5s. so sad.
sec4s and 5s had a performance. hahaha. i was recording it! but when i played, only the back part was there. so sad. then they played this slow song. which gradually everyone went to them to give them hugs. they started crying. i was feeling, but it couldn't come out. so sad right!
(fast forward again!)
went to macs with felicia, jayni, kinny, simone, crystal, heather and dianah. veronica was walking with us to the mrt station area. she didn't go with us. she had to go home. heather and dianah left earlier.
went home. read the letters that i've not read. slept.
i guess i'm going to sleep now. really can't survive now. goodnight. <3
WARNING; FINAL WARNING. PLEASE BLOG, OR YOUR UHM, EARS WILL COME OFF >:D thankyouverymuch.
I, zena tan, owner of this blog. will tell ashlee what is 'soft me' & goreng pisang. because, ashlee doesnt know what is soft me& goreng pisang, ): Awwwh. I love zena's letter. its damn sweeet, <3 hahahahah :D anyway! i bet you loved mine too. eh, its not crap okay, ): youre crushing my ego. D: im writing you a letter now, :D you better LOOOOOVE it like its your life. & if you dont, im gonna jab your eyeballs out, & rip off your skin. Oh, and dissect your heart :/ sadistic eh? i'mbusybusybusybusy busy whoa, damn cool zena. i can do it too, :P ahh, since you're rushing me. this shall be short. ill go now, (: but ill be back. :D im getting influenced greatly by changkee. HAHAHAHAHAH :D i dont care luh :/
Love you :D dont you dare flood my blog with ego-ness. ill go crazy, balistic, oh my. <3
Yowh people! man, man, man, holy shit. I cant believe what i just saw; this eggegohead's blog is deadddddddd (: so awesome ashlee is here to revive it, :D duh of course.
tsk tsk tch tch. zena's too busy for me luh, ): cause shes dating, :D winkwinks* i know who you're lover is. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH :D Zena is damn ego, i tell you. She thinks shes damn cool; cause her hair is urber neat. & not a strand comes off after running 3KM! aka 30000m, :D when ours fly all over the place; like some uh, PURPLE DEAD FISH. Hahaha, i want your damn hair. anyway! i know yall want her password. jealous much rightttt. i'mma cool dude, huh. i know her password. anyone wanna share this WONDERFUL thing with me? her password is ithinkeeyoreisgay. yesh, its true. eeks, my keyboard's so stiff now :/ im gonna go now! & if i have to back to revive this dead blog. you know what will happen, :D
ZENA'S SECRETS SHALL BE EXPOSED. if i know any.. :D EH! come for junior band tomorrow, [: omg, im so damn lazy to climb up three levels to pass your letter to you. OH. come to me before morning assembly. at the parade square :D hahah, i didnt pon school okay. [: didnt you get muscle aches from running 3km? o.O ZOMG.kaboom.bang.KILLME.imDEAD.
i'm going to write type out seraphina's letter in another 5 minutes. i just woke up from my sleep 55minutes ago. heehee. damn tired.
and ashlee, remember to come to my class during morning assembly with MY letter. THANK YOU THANK YOU. hahaha.
she didn't come to school today. how smart right? shannen also.
had sectionals after school today. we were trying to think of new things. HAHAHA! can't make it seriously. sorry. hahaha. some not happy things but yeah.
oh! and one more thing; HEATHER'S CALLED CHANGKEE FROM NOW! ILOVECHANGKEE!<3 okay, off i go.
yeah, had the 3KM run today at WESTCOAST! woke up at 550. DAMN EARLY! i usually wake up at 615. (: reached school at 640.
we took "school" bus there. hahaha. crazy one know they all. 3KM! who would want to run 3KM EARLY IN THE MORNING! CRAZY. hahaha. so yeah, but still quite fun.
went for lunch with monica, kiaying, crystal, nicole, grace and rudy at macs. hahaha. horns were there too.
okay. you know what? i don't feel like blogging anymore. too tired to continue blogging. DAMN TIRED. from 650 until now, haven't got a single sleep. so i shall sleep now.
by the way, CONGRATULATIONS ON BEING CONFIRMED VERONICA!<3 though i couldn't go today. but yeah, i still congratulate you. hahaha.
so yeah, LITTLE INDIA today. damn boring. oh my, how i wish it wasn't compulsory. i rather stay home to sleep and then go for tuition rather than go little india.
hahaha. i had fun at tuition today. thanks to wanqi and her new school. oh, AND SHE LOVES HER WALNUT! hahaha. (:
kidding. don't take it to heart. iloveyou. (:
yeah, so hahaha. what did i say? i had fun at tuition today thanks to wanqi and jianing. hahaha.
yay! shall go sleep now. here's 3KM run at west coast tmr. (:
i officially announce that NICOLEANGCAIYING IS A TOOT! hahaha.
veronica's damn sexy. don't you think so. go to her blog and you will know what i'm talking about. (: click here. and felicia thinks it's scandalous. hahaha.
school today. it started with PE! oh my, janet, mel and i were slacking luh. instead of running, we walked and run, walked and run. hahaha.
mrs nics felt being taken advantage of. which mel feels guilty after what mrs nics said. so yeah.
i made a new friend today! she's from INDIA! her name is trishana(sp?) she's my "hiiii" partner. as in we drag at the back. hahaha.
stayed back for life science today. it was SO MUCH more fun then making the damn tempeh. it stinks. i prefer bacterial transformation. is it? i don't remember what is it called but yeah, something to do with bacteria.
hahaha. just finished dinner. i know. damn late. hahaha. doing homework and typing out janet's letter. hahaha.
hahaha. okay. so now, since farewell is over, i can say everything now! hahaha.
so yeah, today was only farewell for percs. the band's farewell is next saturday. so sad right? hahaha.
woke up damn early today. at about 0810am. and then got ready and all, heather reached at about 9am. after that, received a call from monica. heather and i went to meet them at the serangoon gardens round-a-bout. because apparently, shannen forgot which bus-stop to alight. hahaha.
so yeah. after that, left house with crystal and kiaying at about 1045 to go tp interchange and wait for, felicia, veronica, jayni and kinny. hahaha.
took 73 home with them. and then it all started! hahaha. had pizza and KFC for lunch but didn't feel like eating KFC. only ate pizza. hahaha. yeah. and then we tried to play twister until xinyi told me that the red banner thingo "dropped" colour and it stained the gate. had such a hard time cleaning it off.
felicia found a scrub kind detergent to try and it worked, which made her ego all come out. hahaha. so yeah, finally, we cleaned it off. if not, i'll DIE! we just re-painted the gate this year. that's why i'll die if we don't get it cleaned off. so yeah, felicia and veronica is damn ego.
simone came and all, and we watched a video which shannen and i made. hahaha. yeah. after watching, shannen, monica and simone gave them their farewell gifts from us. damn cool. if only i had one. but in my dreams luh. hahaha.
i wanted to go to the playground actually. but apparently, no one wants to go. they wanted to go home. which left only kiaying, heather, shannen and dianah staying longer. hahaha. we walked to the bus-stop and waited together except shannen who would rather stay in the house don't know for what. and then, suddenly sms and say that she regrets. hahaha.
yeah, they left, came home, started doing homework. kiaying was watching KIDS CENTRAL. shannen trying to play CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE TONIGHT on the piano. heather, dianah and i tried to do homework, in the study room. hahaha. the two of them came up and shannen started hogging the computer. hahaha. for damn long. had macs for dinner.
had an indoor "picnic" in the study room. kiaying didn't eat. she had to eat dinner with her family. (:
so yeah, kiaying left, 10minutes later, heather left, 10minutes later, shannen and dianah left. now, all of them are gone. i kind of MISS beijing A LOT now! hahaha.
hahaha. oh my, time should just slow down now. RAH!
had band today. officially without the sec4s and 5 and now, with the sec1s. had 6 morning runs today. not that bad actually. though i have not been running for a long time.
hahaha. okay. went for lunch at macs with crystal, shannen, kiaying and rudy. hahaha. talked and all, shannen had to leave because she had tuition. then we talked for a while more, it started to rain.
the rest of them went back to the interchange while i just took a bus at the bus-stop. we ate at EC macs luh. hahaha.
oh right, my family changed to a new car. i sort of miss the old one but the new one is not that bad. we changed it because the old one was getting noisy. the engine a little crazy already luh. hahaha. making a lot of noise. and then now, it seems so quiet. i'm so used to the noise i guess. and the new car! the door is damn heavy.
i miss the red and black seats in the old car. sigh. so fast, 3 years gone. we got the old car 3 years ago, and now, 3 years is up, old one goes, new one comes.
okay. so yeah, quite bored now. hahaha. shall go continue getting my sleep! damn tired. woohoo~!