2 more days till the end of work attachment. quite fast. these 2 days with eduwealth had been fun. stacia and all would be having theirs next week. i'll be almost all alone for band next week since xinyi would be on work attachment.
another day at millenia walk tmr. today was just exciting. the game pace was really very fast. totally different from the pace that we play in school. hahaha. my group came in third! not bad not bad. (:
okay. train-ed to tp with weiwei. had a very long talk with her. sorry eh friend. she wanted to watch a movie, but i didn't want to cause my stomach was really gonna explode. too full from breakfast. so yeah. she went to qian ying's house instead.
oh well. life has been quite boring these days. 1 month to concert. i'm getting VERY SCARED. it's like, we're not prepared at all. and there's gonna be auditions. i pray that we all do well. (:
i wonder how was prac today. forgot to sms xinyi. sms her tmr instead.
i wanna watch my sister's keeper. but no one to go with. janet watched it already. i think stelle would be too busy. shall ask lyn, grace and jacq tmr. (:
in less than 6 months, you're leaving. but ever since that incident, i haven't been talking to all of you. i'll definitely miss you.
i've kinda given up. i'm just going to separate myself from everything and just concentrate on o's next year. though i know it's going to be painful, but i'm really tired. it's as though none of you bother anyway. i'll live my own way. i'll make myself immune to everything. only this way, would make me feel better when i face all of you. but before you leave, for one day, we'll be back to how we used to be. after that, byebye.
everything's screwed up in my life. nothing is going smoothly. is there anything that i'll be successful in? i don't think so.
mother says i'm no longer my cheerful self. i kinda agree. let's hope things change for the better. i pray it does. if not, i'll just live with it.
thank you stacia and stef. but i think, nothing's gonna help now. it's all up to God. sorry for making your efforts go down the drain. but you had fun. you get what i mean. it's definitely not as bad or worse than mine.
so, my face is slighly burnt. and i became darker. hahaha.
yesterday, jelly came over with stef. to go over to estelle's chalet together. mother and father fetched us there. something happened halfway and i left without telling. headed to www with janet they all. damn fun. (:
cheryl and bel neo came halfway. in the middle, everyone got tired. so we sat at the shallow end of the tsunami thingo and played truth or dare. bel had to go to the lifeguard and thank him. cheryl challenged herself. was damn tired. i fell asleep at the table where we left our stuffs. (:
bathed, dinnered with janet, mel, zenia and shermaine at new york new york. jacq came over with michele. talked to estelle and decided to go over to hers for a while. half an hour later, left with cheryl, jacq and joycelyn. train-ed home with joycelyn and jacq. (:
the train ride was damn long. and joycelyn got hooked onto my touch. to watch videos. hahaha.
peektures are on facebook. i look super spastic. but i had loads of fun with zenia and all. (: hee.
omg omg, today is a wonderful day. officially done with eoys today.
went for lunch with janet, sab, odelia and mel. went over to janet's house with mel to wait for her to bathe and pack for zenia's chalet + sleepover. then went over to mel's house to wait for her to bathe and pack too. then came to my house to wait for me to bathe. hahaha, nope. didn't sleepover. cause i've to fetch stef and jelly over to estelle's chalet tmr.
oh right. another happy thing. today would be the first and most probably the last time that my mother agreed to let me go to wild wild wet without adult's supervision. woohoo. i don't have to hide from her already. hee. awesome man. going with janet they all. (:
bbq today was damn fun. there was the birthday girl, zenia, janet, mel, cheryl, bel neo, diandra, joycelyn, jacq, jiawen, shermaine and michele. damn fun. hahaha. tmr would be another fun day with most of them at wild wild wet. but i've got no idea if people from estelle's chalet would be angry. i'll be there early in the morning but leave at about 12 plus to meet janet and co. (:
it's been long since i went to www. i really wanna go, especially when my mother gave me the permission to go without her around. the first time ever that i'm going to have fun that has water with my friends alone. i hope the rest understands. damn scared.
i'll go back to the chalet with cheryl and joycelyn after www. (: fun fun. can't wait! (:
hahaha, 4.30 and i'm still on the computer. couldn't get to sleep, so decided to do some bio. (: at the same time, i get to listen to music. hee.
i'm left with sunday and monday to do bio. intending to study through the night tmr too, since there's no school on monday. (:
went for mother's ex-colleague's son's wedding today. it's a malay wedding. quite cool eh. hahaha.
tuesday, gonna go for lunch with janet after her bio paper. since she ends later than me, she takes pure bio! (: after lunch-ing, she'll go home and get ready for zenia's chalet, while i meet jelly and co. ! hahaha. get stuff. tuesday, jelly and stef would buy breakfast and come over to my house. early in the morning. mother will fetch us to estelle (lim)'s chalet. i guess it'll be fun?
mother would fetch jelly and stef home too. since they live near my place. (: i can't wait till december hols. there's taiwan trip! and other outings. janet and i are intending to do voluntary work too! janet and stelle are gonna go to chiang rai. chloe, estelle and jelly are gonna go to sabah. we're intending to send them off at the airport, request by chloe. hahaha.
btw, eoys are kinda screwed. sigh. let's just pray that i won't retain or drop to normal.
so, 6 papers done and 3 more to go. poa tmr, chem on friday and bio next tuesday. i've yet to finish memorising poa formats and examples. i've to rush home tmr from school to memorise chem. and i've four days to read ms lock's and chantel's notes for bio.
f&n paper was damn difficult. even mrs yeo thought so too. hahaha. she promised to mark it leniently.
got to reach school at only 1015 tmr. but still gonna wake up at normal time cause stacia's coming over at 630. to study + breakfast and then mother's fetching the both of us to school at 930. 3 hours to do poa. hahaha. coolio.
so i'll probably get to sleep earlier today. (: or maybe i'll memorise by today and then use the 3 hours tmr to go through all over again. depends luh. at least i know which ones are the more important ones. (:
i hope i don't screw poa anymore. i was that close to passing mid years. i really don't want history to repeat itself. specialised journal, cash book and petty cash book is the most worrying thing for me. and disposal. sigh. i've to pray real head that i don't forget anything i'm going through after this.
and i heard a math paper today was difficult. very difficult. i think the teachers are out to kill us. sigh.
chantel and crystal has finished their papers and PSLE respectively. and they're both having their nice fun time now. while i'm still struggling with 3 papers. it'll be my turn to start fun next tuesday. but i'm afraid of getting my papers back. hope i don't fail that badly. sigh.
my head is full of healthcare now. i wonder how i'm gonna listen in classes tmr when my mind is only filled with ss and nothing else. it's on friday people. i'm screwed to the max.
so, after healthcare, it would be diplomacy and deterrance. a chapter where i don't understand a single thing. shit.
i'm damn screwed for ss. i hope governance or healthcare would come out. healthcare in singapore pleaseeeeeeeee. dead dead dead. how many times have i said that i'm dead? lost count.
i'm hoping that stelle would remember to bring my clothes tmr. i've been reminding her since idk when, and she hasn't returned it to me. and she hasn't been replying my smses to tell me that she'll bring it tmr. ahhhhhh.
so, i'm gonna go off the computer and resist the temptations of using the computer after this post. i'll probably use the computer for music only. shall cut the internet off after this. good idea. (: heehee.
someone, donate your smart brain cells to me! i need them urgently. i haven't started chem, poa and f&n. screwed screwed screwed. i'm feeling damn shit now. byebye.
stayed back today in class for a little while. was supposed to be recycling the whole load of bottles in class today but i didn't know when they left class so i stayed in class to wait for them. chloe was doing the invitations. it's damn nice. hahaha. (:
bused home with the same people. omg, i swear stacia is the most aunty person. hahaha. we wanted to go to NTUC to get sushi, she thought we wanna get fish. awesome luh she.
f&n was slack to the max. mrs yeo went for N's. so yeah, ms fatima (sp?) took over. (: 2 periods of ss today. another 1 period tmr. i understood chapter 6 a little better today. deterrance and diplomacy. sigh.
ss has loads to memorise, and i'm on healthcare. i don't think i'll really memorise sri lanka, northern ireland and bonding singapore this time round. i'll focus on chapters 2, 3 and 6. dead dead dead.
mother pissed me off just now. ahhhhh. omg, i can't wait till eoys are over. there's estelle (lim)'s chalet straight after bio paper at night. hahaha. and then idk if i'm gonna stay. bbq the next day. happy happy.
class chalet on 18 nov. woohoo. can't wait, can't wait. eoys, disappear from my life now please.
okay, so another day where i haven't studied. i think i'm damn screwed for eoy. and eoy is on friday. english and ss. while ss, i've only finished memorising governance and the rest are only bits and pieces. geog, i'm only familiar with natural vegetation, the rest are again, bits and pieces. science, idk. i'll probably do it another day since they're the last two papers. poa and f&n is probably gonna die. but i hope my brain will last long enough to memorise. ahhhh. AND CHEENA FORMATS. sigh, i'm screwed.
chantel started her papers already. even she said she's dying. that smart girl, i'm dead.
well, cousins came today. and ate mooncakes. babies came too. cute to the max. (:
how i wish eoys will just disappear from my face now. how i wish i could just vanish and not take eoy. sigh.