“Life is all about timing... the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available,
the unattainable... attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It's all about timing.”
☁zena
6th September
CHIJ SECONDARY TOA PAYOH
SECONDARY 3/7 '09
CONCERT BAND; PERCUSSION!♥
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i used to think that i have great parents. but after today, i think they totally aren't that great after all.
i hate it when they keep comparing my results with people who are smart. i hate it when they keep relating whatever they can to my studies. i hate it when they keep saying that i'm not scared for my streaming. i hate it when they keep saying that i don't study and using the computer instead. i hate it when they keep accusing me. i hate it when they scold me without knowing. i hate it when they say i'm useless. i hate it when they say i'll stay in sec2 next year.
they don't know what i'm thinking. they think that whatever they do is the best for me. they don't think about how i feel. i've never felt so miserable before. but ever since SA1, both of them changed.
they think that my sister is good in her studies while i'm just a pile of shit. they think that only my sister is good acadamically while i'm useless. they think that i cant study. they think badly of me. they have never seen me trying. they have never thought about me. all they want is good results. they've never realised the stress and pressure unto me by them. they've never realised about all the things that are happening around me.
i hate it. i hate this kind of life. i hate my life.
i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid. i hate myself for being stupid.
i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart. i'm jealous at people who are smart.
i know i'm stupid. stop rubbing salt into my wound. it's not up to me to make you think that i'm studying. it all depends on how you look at me.